FAWM: "Thanks for the Prozac!!!"

Thanks for the Prozac!!!

1 week ago by @vomvorton · @loveonamixtape

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Liner Notes

VV: Hell yeah! Love throwing a rockin' track at @loveonamixtape and knowing that it's going to come back a million times better. Thanks Ashley!

LoaMT: And *I* love when @vomvorton throws an awesome rocker my way!

Kinda in my #emo era with this one (I've been listening to a lot of early 2000s emo lately, tbqh) and also apparently late-in-life SSRI users writing songs about SSRIs helping them is kind of a thing right now? (Well, I know of at least one other person, @owl, who wrote on a similar subject and two people make a trend, right?) Anyway, I started Prozac in November and it hasn't solved all of my problems, but it's been pretty remarkable how much better I feel, mostly because it's just really...subtle (drinking way way less probably hasn't hurt either)? Anyway! It's all pretty much there in the song. The lyrics are also partially inspired by "The Hunger Artist," a Kafka short story (which I also wrote a song about during 50/90) and the book "The Artist's Way."

Thanks again for letting me sing on this rocking track and giving it such a great mix, @vomvorton!

#indierock

Lyrics

I’ve got my eyes open wide
For what feels like the first time
I didn’t even notice the black and white
Until everything went technicolor

I’m not in Kansas anymore

Now that I feel like myself
I can’t remember when I last felt like myself
Now that I feel like myself
I can’t remember if I ever felt like myself before
But anyway
Now I do
Now I do, yeah

A butterfly landed on my fingertip
And made me feel like a Disney princess for a moment
Then it flew away
And I was still okay

I’m more than the things that happen to me

Now that I feel like myself
I can’t remember when I last felt like myself
Now that I feel like myself
I can’t remember if I ever felt like myself before
But anyway
Now I do
Now I do, yeah

Contrary to what they’d have me believe
I still feel everything
And intensely
It just doesn’t overwhelm me as much
Anymore
Anymore, yeah

It’s like a Rubik's cube I’ve solved
Or maybe not solved
But I can see that there’s a solution
And it’s not just a cruel joke

All those derogatory remarks about "Happy Pills" from artists I respected growing up
That kept me from trying this earlier
And how many of them...well, where the fuck are they now?
No disrespect
I just mean
Being an artist doesn’t have to mean suffering
I don’t need to cut my nose to spite my face
Or mail you my ear with a love letter
What if I let myself believe that I deserved to feel normal?
What if I let myself believe that I’d still have something worth saying?
What if I refused to make myself bleed for it every time?
To let you watch me bleed?

Oh, now I can hold it all
The contradictions
Everything
I feel so fucking powerful!
Goddam!
In my softness
In my violently tenderheartedness
I can carry it all or let it all go!
I feel so
Good

Comments

@communitykickabout 6d

The first time the powerhouse vocals come through for the 'Now that I feel like myself.. section I knew this was absolutely going to be a keeper. Love the dynamics in the guitar layering around this too. The talking section was great, it felt very 90's for a bit and I am super down for that.

@thelowestbitter 1w

great collab! LOVE the forcefulness of Ash's chorus vocal, proper belted out. Tune itself is class, love that bass sound in particular, the stripped back verses sound great. Excellent work

@frostin 1w

This has the rawness of Cranberries and bass is so tight. So good! Really like the mixing. The spoken word rings true, not forced (as sometimes might be). Overall great!

@frenchcricket 1w

This is brilliant. It has a bit of a Sharon van Ettenish feel when the guitars come in full force. Great stuff. "I'm more than the things that happen to me" yes babe. Felt that.

@nadine 1w

What great lyrics! I wonder if emo bands existed with all the meds today?! I never felt the way in the lyrics, but it must be great.

I love how Ash breaks free in the chorus. The voice sounds so wild and free!

The instrumental has such a powerful vibe while having a slight dreamy vibe. Really love this

@circle 1w

The vocals at times feel like they're breaking down a window that eventually shatters through the force of them. So good! The jangly dangly emo chords are also wonderful, and I love the telephoney spoken word break down. The main thing is that all of it sounds fantastic and so well put together and arranged. Well done you guys

@jerrypettit 1w

Been a fan of Ashley's voice for about a year now--and I think this is the first "rocker" I've heard her do. Thanks for inspiring her @vomvorton . Great set of lyrics and wonderful arrangement! ❤️

@bradbrubaker 1w

Love my happy pills. A lot less bs to wade through. Guitars have a quiet songs on Mellon Collie vibe to them, but with more impassioned singing, of course. I like how the singing about feeling good sounds slightly upset. It makes me believe it more for some reason.

@balancelost 1w

Love that bassline driving the melody. Ashley is belting it like I've never heard before (I'm sure I have, but still), and I feel like the music it trying to keep up with the vocal in terms of dynamics, all the cool breakdowns and build-ups are awesome. Noice work both of you!

@jimdgreen 1w

ooo I've getting some death cab for cutie vibes here and I'm all for it.

absolutely loving this . . . so so good.

@sailingmagpie 1w

Excellent collab. Fantastic soaring vocal that works perfectly with the clanging guitars. There's a real punch-the-air vibe that fits perfectly with the subject matter.

@celineellis 1w

Prozac Pop Punk? The arrangement is HOT and the topline is superb, I would never guess that this was conceived individually and not in the room together. Particularly love the spoken break down, and the melodic bass.

@jackdawfactories 1w

Oh. Oh more of this please? I'd buy an album of this.

@ndavies 1w

I'm into this! The chiming 7th chords, the cathartic vocals

@freshspotlessyouth 1w

There's a lot of tasty guitar here. And that vocal runs the gamut from delicate to full on effing rocking. I just want to second everything jennakole said and leave it there. I feel some second-hand powerfulness myself

@jennakole 1w

This is a lovely lil triumph! It’s got that ebullient sugar cubes vibe with some gritty playful pixies stuff. The end is made so celebratory after the spoken part.

It sounds fuckin perfect too, that breaks my brain. Thank jeebus for zoloft.

@adforperu 1w

There's a bit of that mid-western vibe going on, but this feels like it's also dipping its toe in a Pixies sorta universe (and not just for the LoudQUIETloud). Ash is an absolute powerhouse; that audio interface has been fixed and then some. Vom's instrumental is brilliant, really feels like a band playing together, which isn't easy to do when tracking things individually.

@owl 1w

Yay for this awesome new genre we’ve pioneered! Glad you are feeling better as well, the constant sense of being overwhelmed was exactly what I was complaining to my therapist about to start with. The verse about the butterfly is such an understated and brilliant way to convey resilience. Vocals sound awesome, so joyful and powerful in the chorus. The music rocks— I love the contrast between the style of the verse and chorus. The guitars are lovely and the bass even comes through nice and clear on my phone speakers.

@kosch 1w

This sounds wonderful - wonderful singing as always - spoken word part was just the right bite.
And a view I don't think I've ever seen in a song.
Well done, folks.