Lost

3 weeks ago by @sophiewritessongs

Liner Notes

Started on new year’s day and only just finished it
For Hugo, who I miss dearly

Lyrics

I first saw you walk through the door with your hands in your pockets, your eyes on the floor
They looked up, they met mine, you watched me slowly as i tried passing the time
Gave you a grand tour of the house in the Lakes, showed you it all but i didn’t know what to say
Late out that night we were watching the stars, shivering, frozen, skin showing, warm hearts

That first day you came through this house
This sacred space that i’ve known all my life
Now i’m alone on new year’s day
But, oh, what a start, what a beautiful night

It’s not the same with you gone
The sun’s coming out, it’s the end of the storm
But we had so much left to do
So much more to explore, so many empty rooms
Remember our eyes met in the hall
Now you run for the hills but i wait by the door
In case there’s something you forgot
Did you leave us behind, do you know what you lost?
Do you know what you lost?

We stumbled along the moors side by side, it was raining in Kendal as I made up my mind
I know it was foolish to fall for you so fast but I couldn’t fight it, couldn’t just let it pass
I’ve tried to rewrite it, tried to change the end, tried to stop the ink pouring out of the pen
Now your car’s on the road, you’re miles away, I sit here alone by the window again

It’s not the same with you gone
Your hand was in mine, why didn’t you hold on?
Now we’re both falling away
From everything we knew over the past three days
We can both try to pretend
It’s been a lifetime since last year, an hour from the end
I wasn’t aware of the cost
Do you feel it inside you, the aching of loss?
Do you feel like you're lost?

Darling, I’ll see you next year, same time, different place
And for now, I’ll take a step back i’ll let you walk away
I would lie and say i won’t miss you but it’s obvious
That your name will, for this year, remain upon my lips
I’ll give it time, and i’ll be patient, but, love, what about you
Distance heals everything, so i’ll say i’ll see you soon
And i’ll pretend that i don’t know that i’ll spend next year all alone
Today is new year’s day and i’m holding on to a ghost

It won’t be the same now you’re gone
Your eyes were the light to the weight that i’ve borne
And now i’ll keep holding you here,
A few photographs of you to last me the year
Your whole face lit up when you smiled
Now you’re just down the road, just a few hundred miles
How am i supposed to just move on
I followed you anywhere and now i can't find my way
I am lost

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