Parasite
by @wondertruly
NSFWLiner Notes
#singersongwriter #acousticonetake #indiepop
Happy Weekend, 50/90ers!
I found out yesterday that an issue with DES deciding they'd overpaid me in my pandemic unemployment is still ongoing, and the news derailed me pretty badly. I couldn't figure out for the life of me why something so small and so out of my hands (I found out at 4pm, basically the end of the business day) was having such a huge effect on me.
After sleeping on it, I decided pathologizing the "why" was not as helpful as addressing the feeling itself, and holding my boundaries with myself to stay hopeful and optimistic, and not succumb to that sticky sense of doom that's so prevalent these days.
I wanted to try something in homage to the style of Ren, who is a FANTASTIC musician whose work deals quite a lot in chronic illness and mental health.
Lyrics
Look, man, I was doing pretty well until you got here
Been feeling pretty stable, been a good year
Been looking out for me and my own
And true, my therapist quit a little bit back
But I’m surprisingly surviving in spite of that
‘Cause I know I’m never truly alone
You’re just a parasite
And I have no room in my brain for you
Please, kindly step aside
I don’t have time to accommodate for you
Ooh, ooh
Look, friend, it’s not my fault you ended up here
Cortisol draining from my left ear
The body really does keep the score
And look! I’m staying medicated on the good shit
Trazodone, Lamictal, and Wellbutrin
Work together to keep me off of the floor
You’re just a parasite
And I have no room in my brain for you
Please, kindly step aside
I don’t have time to accommodate for you
Ooh, ooh
Look, man, I know you came all this way to derail me
Picked up on the scent of being happy
But I gotta send you back where you came
You’re just a parasite
And I have no room in my brain for you
Please, kindly step aside
I don’t have time to accommodate for you
‘Cause I won’t spin around pathologizing why my head’s a mess
You want to hang around, but baby, you just can’t afford the rent
Ooh, ooh
Comments
Seriously though, the melodic and rhythmic shifts are incredible in this. And you en-un-ci-a-ted all those words in the fast verses so well, I would trip over myself if I tried to do that. This is raw and true and beautiful. I hope life can cut you a break for a while - I know the feeling of being hammered by crap, believe me.